Thursday, March 8, 2018

Because


Guide me
Sage ...
child of the infinite,
that we also
may become
One with the infinite,
to give us
direction,
in this life,
on this rock
infinite space …
to become,
with every breath,
A frozen wildflower,
Its faded colors pressed in the ice,
A thing of limitless beauty
beyond
What can be
or is
by merely imagining it.

Defying of the rules of this place,
This entropy
This space,
This math,

life

wants …

to live


because



Monday, February 19, 2018

The Edge of Entropy ...


Camping in the Colorado Rockies we had a little disaster. One of our small personal inflatable mattresses sprung a leak. After one night of sleeping on the cold dank ground I had an idea. There were some large patches of moss spread along the river bank we were following and I moved the tent over to where part of the tent covered some moss. The others used the remaining air pads while I slept in the corner where the moss was. I was fine. It was warm and soft, which is odd because it was literally growing on a large flat crumbling plate of rock. I felt a little bad afterwards because I’d flattened the patch where I slept, but it looked like it would rebound. The decent night’s sleep helped me stave off the ever-creeping altitude sickness and the always present headache mitigated only by drinking ridiculous parcels of water.

That moss, growing on a sliding schist, drawing from a mineral detritus, siphoning elements, spinning them in a symbiotic concert designed ... to keep the moss alive …

Why?

Natural selection … this moss surviving where other less magnificently adapted mosses may have failed …

But the elements themselves, moving from scattered decay to an orchestra of chemical symmetry in the breath of life that occurs somewhere between the stone and the nimble rhizoid fingers leaching on its edges. It defies entropy, it defies physics, it uses the decay.

Why would life fly in the face of the physical confines of this universe?
Because, obviously, as is the case with the moss ... it is designed to. 


Monday, January 29, 2018

Quest ...

I think I have a calcium deficiency, my nails are brittle. Probably from my limited dairy intake. Helps if I have some nonfat yogurt and maybe a glass of skim milk. My vitamin D levels are probably also low. I'm all out of niacin and calcium. Niacin I have to take a break from, but if you take it for six weeks it's great. I think is has something to do with soluble fat metabolism, I know there are vascular effects, but it definitely does something good, thins the blood. All I take these days is vitmin d and fish oil. Sometimes calcium if I have it. I was out in the sun for a good portion of the day on Saturday but I don't think it did much with just my face exposed, hard not to be vitamin D deficient this time of year. 

I'm struggling with maintaining twice a week judo while running 3 times a week, and the mod1punchman (100 push ups 100 sit ups 100 squats 1 mile run same day at least twice a week). It's hard to get everything in. It helps if I set time aside that I normally take for granted, like when I first get to my office in the morning I can do my push ups. I usually have time for my sit ups before I shower. Sometimes I do my squats on my lunch break. My body is struggling to stay around 168 lbs, i have a hard time getting under that no matter what I do. I wonder if that means I'm at my optimal body weight? I feel like I can still lose 8 or 10 lbs. I will fluctuate on any given day from 167 to 172 depending on water weight. Nevertheless, I continue to make gains in other areas. I feel pretty strong. Finally feel like I've recovered from what I think was some sort of flu that lingered with aches and muscle stiffness for what felt like a couple of weeks.

My big leap forward was in running. I ran a 7:45 mile about a week ago. Doesn't sound like much but it's the best I've done since I was probably 30 something. I've been alternately trying to run outdoors when it isn't too cold and it's helped tremendously with balance and stability. Also I remember what a blast it is to run with chesty and feel like one of the pack. 

Judo has been going well. I think I'm ready to try for my green belt. I executed a pretty decent uchi mata (inner thigh throw) the other day. The Greeks seem to like like uchi mata ... funny because I'm Greek. Maybe there's a genetic predisposition ... It's a smooth and sneaky throw, always seems like an afterthought but guaranteed to work if you can hook the leg. I've been working on it for quite a while and to finally pull one off in rondori was pretty sweet. The minimal effort of it was magical, force like. I think uchi mata is my throw. 

The weather makes it tough this time of year. It's been on the brutal side more often than not. Wreaks havoc on the skin. I had a bout with the 30 below doldrums over the break but pulled out of it nicely. Still feeling some anxiety but that's nothing new. I think I've finally admitted to myself that I have a touch of social anxiety, always have. The Marines sort of cured it in a pragmatic sense but it's still there. 

Other than that the quest goes on.

I just hope I have the honor of watching one or more of my sons become a black-belt and, when and if that happens ... to still be able to beat them ... now that would be a hell of a 10 year fitness goal.